Daily check-in thread for January 28, 2008

Had a short workout. Not quite satisfied with it. Must work harder on Wednesday.

Here we are in the last week of Janurary folks. I'm still writing everything down. At times I'm still a little overwhelmed when I still procrastinate on things, but I'm working on it!

Did not meditate Friday night - fell asleep with my sweetie while watching movies. Got back on track Saturday and Sunday. 22/27

Will continue working on this through next month - probably up the time to 20 minutes - and add a second goal of regular workouts. Until then, I'll keep plugging away with the meditation! :-)

I'm doing well.
I've figured out how to get the bathroom floor, mirrors and toilet cleanings into my schedule by doing them while my sheets are in the washer. Since I already have a really good habit of washing my sheets every weekend, I'm hoping that linking the two habits will help me get those once-a-week tasks done. It's funny, but I'm really good at the daily habits yet struggle immensely with the less frequent ones.
I have too many choreographies that I'm practicing right now, so I think I'm going to have to make a weekly rehearsal schedule so that I can fit them all in.
Looking forward to february, which is coming soon, I'm feeling ready and overwhelmed at the same time. I'm going to tackle one of my big ones next month, I think.

Had cereal for breakfast. Not really even an issue anymore. I guess I have a new habit. Bring on February!

Processed to zero - took less than a minute today - did a half ass review on friday and sunday. Weekly reviews seem to be one of my biggest issues at this point. Maybe for feburary

I did my planning session yesterday afternoon. I'm also busy doing today's one now. i think from now on i'll just do my reportback as I'm doing my planning, makes sense :)

24 of 27

Since I didn't have to be at work until 1 today, I hung around the house doing laundry. I had nothing clean to wear. However, the laundry got done in plenty of time before I had to go to work!

Hi World Diary :D ,
Well I have to admit this "January Challenge" was a complete success. I'd been involved with a group of folks that all shared in the same hobby. This had lasted for around 4 or 5 years. I was very insecure when I started down this road on all levels. Inwardly, I feared rejection due to the nature of this hobby and how different I was to the "others"and outwardly, because I had never done anything like this before.

I kept all of my "true-self" a secret. I was scared if the "group" new the REAL-me they'd cast me out. What I realized was that I had spent the last 4 years feeling drained. Drained meaning tired and nervous. I became a "yes" person. Someone who just agreed to everything, but inside felt very differently.

FINALLY, a little over 2 months ago I gave up my facade(sp?), pulled off my mask, tore off my costume and revealed my real self to this group.

What this meant was I did not lock horns with anyones beliefs or critisize. I just spoke my own truths gently and honestly.

AND GUESS WHAT! I got rejected. Maybe on their part is was subconscous, I'll never know??? But I stopped correspondense with this group, many of whom I know personally. I had had a crisis in my personal life and didn't have the energy to keep in touch with any of them. AND GUESS WHAT, not one of them wrote me or called to see if I was o.k. NOT ONE!!!!!! And these were people I considered good friends.

NOW- this is what I learned. From day one I will be me. I will no longer pretend to agree or stuff myself into the "back seat" to fit in with anyone. NEVER AGAIN!!!

The moment I had this realization I felt a flood of energy race thru my previously sad and tired "me". I felt so much better realizing this. Believe me, self-sacrifice can be a subtle DEVIL.

This is the small version, but it's the basic truth I learned from accepting my circumstances and having a deep-REAL look at myself and gettin down to the truth.

I look only to myself for what had happened with eyes wide open, maybe my mouth a little too :lol:

Can't wait for the Feb. Challenge...heeheeee I'll commit to speaking my truths and being truthful with whom I am.

I've taken 4 days off. Rationalization: Friday, had to leave for a work trip very early. Saturday and Sunday I take off no matter what so I don't end up hating it. Today, icy and snowy. The weather seems to be clearing up so I plan on getting back in the saddle tomorrow! (It started hailing the instant I typed that)

24/28.

Book: Research-- effect on railroad expansion on Westward Expansion as it pertained to ND.
Photo: New camera shooting icicles.

For the next 30 days, I will do something each day related to career development.
At the end of the 30 day period, my objective is to be closer to my ideal career than I am now.

Continued work on my "future resume"
Read another very good article on career change

I guess it's good for my soul to 'fess up, but I hate to admit to it. I will do better tomorrow.

I'm flagging, here at the end of the month when the habit ought to be well established. Nothing done on the 28th. Still, that was due mostly to worrying about a horror task which I finally polished off this morning, so today should be better.

Did it. I'm looking forward to the end of the month, when I can do the next step in >Your Money or Your Life,< and actually tabulate and analyze my spending. I don't doubt that it will be shocking. I'm also looking forward to next month's challenge.

Keep plugging away, all,

MfC

[list:b1ab8c7cec][*:b1ab8c7cec]Cut down on alcohol (continued report from December): Done.
[*:b1ab8c7cec]Work on improving self-awareness and self-confidence (read my statements to myself every day): Done.
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